Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
A request
Jim, my grandfather, has been in the hospital a month now battling....pretty much everything. His kidneys have shut down, his bones are like paper and so something is always broken, he has sores and infections, pneumonia, it just seems like the list goes on and on.
Sunday I went home and my family and I visited him. He was a bit out of it at times, but he was so happy to see us. At one point when the nurse was talking to grandma about all thats going on with him, he grabbed my hand and held it so tight. He's so scared, and wants nothing more than to come home.
Please, keep him in your thoughts. Hope for him to get well enough to return very soon home, where he can feel a bit happy. He is in so much pain right now, I pray that if this cannot happen, things will go quickly and relatively painlessly. As much as I and the family don't want to lose him, this suffering isn't fair either.
Please send him good vibes, that he may slowly heal and his pain will begin to subside. Thank you.
Sunday I went home and my family and I visited him. He was a bit out of it at times, but he was so happy to see us. At one point when the nurse was talking to grandma about all thats going on with him, he grabbed my hand and held it so tight. He's so scared, and wants nothing more than to come home.
Please, keep him in your thoughts. Hope for him to get well enough to return very soon home, where he can feel a bit happy. He is in so much pain right now, I pray that if this cannot happen, things will go quickly and relatively painlessly. As much as I and the family don't want to lose him, this suffering isn't fair either.
Please send him good vibes, that he may slowly heal and his pain will begin to subside. Thank you.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Fade away.
When your dreams are torn away from you, how do you find the motivation to keep on going?
Everything that you were doing to work toward those dreams just starts to feel pointless.
You know it still matters, but its hard to see. When your motivation is gone, what are you working toward?
I'm still trying to trust, to get back up and keep going. To believe that life has something good in store for me, and its just different than what I thought. I'm trying to look at this as an opportunity to challenge myself and try something new and unexpected. I know I'm lucky to still have all I do. I know people whose worries are much more serious.
I'm really trying.
But right now, I still feel like its not fair.
I still feel so robbed.
Everything that you were doing to work toward those dreams just starts to feel pointless.
You know it still matters, but its hard to see. When your motivation is gone, what are you working toward?
I'm still trying to trust, to get back up and keep going. To believe that life has something good in store for me, and its just different than what I thought. I'm trying to look at this as an opportunity to challenge myself and try something new and unexpected. I know I'm lucky to still have all I do. I know people whose worries are much more serious.
I'm really trying.
But right now, I still feel like its not fair.
I still feel so robbed.
Monday, October 13, 2008
I don't really know
I'm not really quite sure why I'm making this.
Most likely I'll write in it well for about a week, and then forget about it, just like everything else. But I guess its here if I want it.
Most likely I'll write in it well for about a week, and then forget about it, just like everything else. But I guess its here if I want it.
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